What does it mean to be spiritual? I meditate, do yoga, read books on Buddhism and spirituality. I also watch TV, dance to loud rock and roll and occasionally read People Magazine. When I engage in these latter activities, does this mean I am not being spiritual?
One day I watch a DVD documentary about Thich Nhat Hanh, a well-known Vietnamese Zen monk. I am deeply moved and inspired by this wise and gentle soul. I feel this burning desire to be like him. I vow then and there to be more “spiritual”; perhaps meditate longer and more often, pray daily and more fervently.
But then the next few nights my sleep is more disturbed than usual, which triggers my seizure threshold, and my anxiety is heightened. From there, feelings of dread and despair threaten to take over. Instead of meditating, which I feel I should do, but requires focus and concentration I do not have, I binge watch “The Kardashians”. Where did my resolve go? I feel bad about myself. Maybe I don’t have what it takes to be a truly spiritual person.
And yet upon reflection, those times when I give in and watch TV, I realize that I’m doing what my mind and body need to do. As someone who is chronically ill, I spend a lot of my time, like it or not, inwardly focused, probably more than the average person. I suspect this is true for most people with chronic illness.
For me, this can lead to depressive and anxious states and sometimes, despair.
I do use meditation
practice to investigate these difficult emotional states, but sometimes, I need
a break! I need distraction and I can get that quite easily with TV.
Many spiritual teachers warn of being distracted through
all kinds of activity as a way of separating oneself from what’s going on
internally, but for me there is a danger in getting too caught up in difficult
emotional states. And this can lead towards hopelessness and despondency.
By watching reality shows like “The Kardashians”, I get a lot of
breathing room by entering someone else’s “reality”. It gives me space. It
lightens my mood. There is so much drama and antics packed into one show that
it takes up most of my awareness: Will Scott Disick stop drinking? Will
Kourtney and Scott get back together? Why does Kim act so superior? Will Khloe
be successful with her new fashion line? Will Kris stop meddling?
By immersing myself in such trivial things, I lighten up.
I take myself and my life less seriously. I get my needed break.
So, can we meditate and watch TV and still be spiritual?
Can Thich Nhat Hanh and the Kardashians be part of my spiritual path?
My answer is yes.